after the storm

It is finally sunny.
In the past week, we have received more rain here in Phoenix than the whole of last year. It has been declared a state of emergency, record rain and snowfall, flooding, 50 mph winds.
It just kind of felt like normal to me being from the Northeast, but it's totally not normal for the natives.
Let's see.
So, on the night of my second IV...this was Wednesday....i had an allergic reaction because of cross contamination of a large vial of ALA. Basically towards the end of the bag my eye started to itch and felt like i had something large in it. i rubbed it and blinked alot and finally checked it out, only to find it looked like an apricot. i could hardly open my right eye and my left eyelid was starting to swell. My mom gave me Benedryl and then offered me some shady steroids. I was sort of beside myself. i did not take the steroids, which she was happy for, and i ranted a bit in the kitchen about only drinking juice, getting a lot of IV's, having my eye be enormous, was i going to die, was this going to go away, - the whole lot.
She checked on me on the hour after i went into my drug induced sleep. It was better in the morning, but not all the way better. The right side of my face kind of looked like I'd been Avatared.
We then proceeded to leave 20 minutes late to get to my appointment, this is something i despise. It was fine when we got there, but it's not about it being fine. It's about being respectful, courteous, and realistic. Even when the Doctor or hairdresser or whomever isn't those things, i like to hold personal boundaries and goals. On the other hand, i am frequently late (5-10min) to things that don't have a specific start time. In summary, i was very annoyed and pissed off. I'm sure that those emotions run deeper than that immediate situation.
We got entrained, which was balancing and then headed off to the colonic therapist and the center. Dropped off one member of the crew at the colonic and sped off to the center to have to doctor check out my eye.
my drop in appointment consisted of him saying that it would go away and that it was ok that the blood work from our initial visit came back elevated, because that meant i had a lot of liver cells to shed.
PS: This to me is not helpful. I don't want things elevated. I just want them to be normal and healthy.
The reason he said this was all not only ok, but good, was that everything else looks perfect.
So,I've got that going for me.
Speeding back to the center i was on the verge of tears, but held back because of fear of damage to my swollen eye.
My second colonic was way more comfortable than the first and after drinking green juice and liquids for 5 days and having had a colonic 2 days prior, i was astonished by what STILL came out of my body. Seriously. And i have a healthy diet for the most part. i just can't imagine how that much crap (literally) can be stored in there.
I left feeling like a champ, having beaten my high score from the last visit.
My eye had returned to almost normal by the evening when we had more IV's and watched Bride Wars.
My Sweetie is back at home safely and i miss him. Or, i miss Us. It is a testament of strength and commitment to have him stick around for this kind of stuff. Cause we're young. There are a lot of people in this world. People that don't have what i was given.
It's just the facts. I know everyone has things that they go through. There are certain deal breakers that may even seem less important than the things we are willing and happy to put up with. Needless to say, i am so grateful for his continued support and love. It is invaluable.
Today we will get massages, plan things, re-pot plants, and put together a compost bin for my Mom and Doug. oh yeah, and drink copious amount of green juice. humph.
still. i am thankful that i get this choice. x