morning glow and early rising

oh. good morning.

she says sleepily, although half done with her half cafe chocolate almond milk warm beverage.

i have risen with the sun today.

OK, far well after it, but much earlier than my alarm.

i am thankful for these days where i am bestowed the gift of time. It's usually only the difference of an hour or two, but i get SO MUCH DONE.

I have toyed with the practice of getting up early. setting my alarm for 8 instead of 9.

and.

i press snooze.

every time.

it actually makes me stay in bed longer and i am more tired throughout the day.

For 33 years I've awoken at around 8:30-9 am. It's just the way I'm wired.

so when nature steps in with this delicately wrapped package of space, i gladly take hold and unwrap to see what lies inside.

mostly self-care. sometimes it's all the things that I've been putting off for weeks that get done in 15 minutes.

i am particularly in need of this time right now, so the universe is throwing me a surprise party.

like yesterday when i was headed to work and i was called to hear that my first client had cancelled. this did not come unheralded as she has extreme anxiety and finds showering a insurmountable task.

i turned around and winterized my vehicle. mostly. way more than if i had gone to work.

again, a lovely and unexpected gift.

i have more on my list and i hope to be crossing things off and making room for more progress today.

the items range in degree of importance and urgency, but they are all lumped together.

Leaving it up to me to decide on my capacity level at the moment.

It's all about the small victories. Having 'paint my nails' right next to 'email my ex-husband' takes any emotional charge to a much lower voltage and therefore displaying a seemingly more do-able task.

i have already emailed two Exes, for entirely different reasons. Now i have mostly fun things left on the list, but i guess most things seem that way in relation to forced authenticity and vulnerability.

Those are separate posts all together and they've already been posted.

Unfortunately, due to the nature of these kinds of beasts, i am left cleaning up after them for years after the fact. And i can assure you, if I don't do it, NO ONE ELSE will.

so, i am off to look at the sun and the birds.

and then, i will cross them off of list.

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